back in the nati
My time at BTM finally came to a close. It was rather bittersweet. I actually started crying when I finished Swan Lake until someone reminded me that it would be the people not the place that I'd be missing. I stuck around for a few days just to be a bum then drove back to school.

It's weird being back. It took one class back at CCM to remember all of the reasons why I left in the first place. The bad things are the same. Unfortunately some of the good things seemed to have turned as well. People have definitely changed.

At the end of my first weekend back I got really sick. I was coughing up a lung and horribly congested. No appetite. Sore and achy. Extremely tired. The jokes about swine flu started to get a little old. I'm so grateful that Mike came after his last final on Wednesday. He just left this evening. He pretty much took care of me the entire weekend. I wish that I could have done more fun Cincinnati things with him, but I was so wiped out most of the time. We slept a lot, but we did make it to Newport, Graeter's, Jungle Jim's, etc.

I wish that he hadn't had to leave. Everything just seems so much better when he's there. I'm already ready for the next time that I see him. Eleven days 'til I go out to AZ to chill with him after his surgery.

I'm so burnt out. Even after bummin' the whole weekend. I think it's partly because I'm anxious to know where my life is going. And how things are going to develop and change.