Em (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} pointdancere) wrote,@ 2009-04-05 22:35:00 |
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Things
It's been awhile...
Life was really stressful. I was in a bad place. My anxiety was to the point that my stomach was irritated, and I was getting headaches. Sleep was also not working out.
However, this weekend... everything came together. Last Sunday I auditioned for Charlottesville Ballet. Yesterday, they offered me a company contract. Here's the thing: they're perfect. This was their first season so they're brand new. Class: Combine Miss Lisa and Rebecca... you got class. I hadn't realized how much my heart had missed that kind of movement... boy, it did. Choreography: All contemporary ballet. It feels wonderful. Because they are still a developing company, they only work four days a week, but they like their company members to take class on at least one of the off-days. The studio is actually in Stanardsville (middle of nowhere Virginia), but everyone lives in the city of Charlottesville where the perform. Stanardsville and Charlottesville are, I think, 20-30 minutes apart, but everyone carpools. University of Virginia is in Charlottesville... I can take some real classes. I'm so excited.
Last night Mike and I made chicken parm and had some wine. It was wonderful. Today we slept in, got breakfast (at lunch time) at the diner, and went into DC for the Cherry Blossom Festival. It was beautiful. We ended not actually being around the cherry blossoms for too long because we ventured to find coffee, got way off track, decided just go, had to go to a different Metro, went in search of a bathroom, went back to the Metro... we made circles. It was a lot of walking, but it was a beautiful day and nice to just see the sun.
This week I was thinking a lot about my chain of events and how if one link was different or broken... my overall story would be completely different: If I hadn't switched to GBT, I don't know that I would have gotten into a college dance program. If I had gotten into Butler, I never would have gone to CCM. Had a not gone to CCM, I would never have met Emily, Katie, and other lovely friends. Without CCM, there would have been no Dayton. Without Dayton, I wouldn't have auditioned for BTM because a girl at Dayton was the one who told me about it. If I hadn't come to BTM, I would never have met Tab, Mike, or Lynne (who introduced Charlottesville to me). And without Tab, I wouldn't have met Mike who keeps me so happy and sane. Isn't that sequence crazy? How does that happen?
I feel like thinking about the past doesn't necessarily mean that you're unhappy with the present. Especially in terms of relationships, oftentimes I look back on the past to realize how much better things are. It's not that I want the old relationship back. I like to be happy with the changes and see how things have improved. Especially since I'm not an ex-boyfriend-hater... it's hard for me to not look back sometimes. I see the past as events that made me who I am... happy where I am now. Yeah?
It's been awhile...
Life was really stressful. I was in a bad place. My anxiety was to the point that my stomach was irritated, and I was getting headaches. Sleep was also not working out.
However, this weekend... everything came together. Last Sunday I auditioned for Charlottesville Ballet. Yesterday, they offered me a company contract. Here's the thing: they're perfect. This was their first season so they're brand new. Class: Combine Miss Lisa and Rebecca... you got class. I hadn't realized how much my heart had missed that kind of movement... boy, it did. Choreography: All contemporary ballet. It feels wonderful. Because they are still a developing company, they only work four days a week, but they like their company members to take class on at least one of the off-days. The studio is actually in Stanardsville (middle of nowhere Virginia), but everyone lives in the city of Charlottesville where the perform. Stanardsville and Charlottesville are, I think, 20-30 minutes apart, but everyone carpools. University of Virginia is in Charlottesville... I can take some real classes. I'm so excited.
Last night Mike and I made chicken parm and had some wine. It was wonderful. Today we slept in, got breakfast (at lunch time) at the diner, and went into DC for the Cherry Blossom Festival. It was beautiful. We ended not actually being around the cherry blossoms for too long because we ventured to find coffee, got way off track, decided just go, had to go to a different Metro, went in search of a bathroom, went back to the Metro... we made circles. It was a lot of walking, but it was a beautiful day and nice to just see the sun.
This week I was thinking a lot about my chain of events and how if one link was different or broken... my overall story would be completely different: If I hadn't switched to GBT, I don't know that I would have gotten into a college dance program. If I had gotten into Butler, I never would have gone to CCM. Had a not gone to CCM, I would never have met Emily, Katie, and other lovely friends. Without CCM, there would have been no Dayton. Without Dayton, I wouldn't have auditioned for BTM because a girl at Dayton was the one who told me about it. If I hadn't come to BTM, I would never have met Tab, Mike, or Lynne (who introduced Charlottesville to me). And without Tab, I wouldn't have met Mike who keeps me so happy and sane. Isn't that sequence crazy? How does that happen?
I feel like thinking about the past doesn't necessarily mean that you're unhappy with the present. Especially in terms of relationships, oftentimes I look back on the past to realize how much better things are. It's not that I want the old relationship back. I like to be happy with the changes and see how things have improved. Especially since I'm not an ex-boyfriend-hater... it's hard for me to not look back sometimes. I see the past as events that made me who I am... happy where I am now. Yeah?
